It's complicated

It's been a week,but still there..inside my head,still remember those words...
It's hard to figure it out,what the hell is goin on,who should trust or who should blame,i'm in the middle,it's that my fault ? why ? i didn't mean to hurt you by this way,it mean nothing,for your information,it just my point of view,but now,in this time i'm just the black sheep....

But,she said be strong...

JUST KEEP MOVING FORWARD,

DON'T GIVE A SHIT WHAT OTHER SAID OR THINK,

DO WHAT YOU HAVE TO DO !

 

That was her advice to me,so sweet,thanx GOSSIP GIRL !

 

I though,i can do it,but it still pain inside,and my buddy came up and he said to me ...

 

 

WHEN I'M SAD,I STOP BEING SAD INSTEAD BEING AWESOME.

CHALLENGE ACCEPTED !

 

 

That Quote was from Barney Stinson,How I Meet Your Mother,it maybe lousy,but those word keep motivation me,and just like Barney do,I take the Challenge,dude ! Oh ya since you call me BITCH,so let me tell you what exactly the meaning of BITCH,hooker !

 









 

B-Beauty

I-Inteligent

T-Trustworthy

C-Courageous

H-Happy

 

p/s : yup,maybe i was thin,but i wasn't anorexia,at least i got shape,compare to you FLAT ! oh ya,after this maybe you can tell all of your Double H or watever la that i were update my blog =)

 

One more thing,i love this word,took it from someone i know,

 

 

TAKE A CHANCES,MAKE MISTAKES.

THAT'S YOU GROWTH.

PAIN NOURISHES YOUR COURAGE.

YOU HAVE TO FAIL IN ORDER TO PRACTICE BEING BRAVE.

 

 

He call me,he heard me crying..he said what's wrong..it's middle 3 am,why are u crying..He comfort me,and told me that "doa org yg dianiya nie,dimakbulkan ALLAH,insyaALLAH,just be strong ok,xmo nangis da,x comel da,heee ;)

 

Yup,deep inside my heart,it's hard but i have to move on,head up and step forward,thanx for those who comforting me,and back me up.

 

p/s:my boy said :this was your second time you tell me about this shit,why he always make a problem,apa yg dia and his wife yg x puas hati sgt tu,giler apa,dia x sedar kot apa yg dia buat tu,kurang ajar sgt panggil org bitch,iblis sume tu,dia tu baik sangat ker,takpe ni kali kedua,masuk kali ketiga,memang siap la,sume da ada nie,dia "touch" sikit jer,silap aribulan,duk dalam wad la jawab nyer,bukan setakat dia,1 geng tu kena,sume info aku da ada,da siap pasang org follow kau,haiishhh,bengang aku,bini aku kena kacau,tu la ayang,baik sangat,hingga orang amek advantange,kan da kena,ada jer yang tak puas hati...



 

 





BILE HATI BERBICARA …

ORANG-ORANG TUA SELALU TANYA SOALAN CEPU-CEMAS KEPADA SI BUJANG,CONTOH NYER,DAH DAPAT KERJA BAGUS ?KENAPA BADAN NIE GEMUK SANGAT OR KURUS SANGAT,PALING TAK KURANG PUN,BILA NAK KAHWIN,TAK DE ORANG MASUK PINANG KER?

FOR ME,IS TOTALLY ANNOYING,TERAMAT SANGAT !!! SEBAB TU LA SAYA SELALU PESAN KEPADA IBU SAYA JANGAN TANYA SOALAN2 SEPERI ITU ATAU SEANGKATAN DENGAN NYA PADA SI BUJANG SEBAB,BAGI SAYA “APA  MAKSUD DENGAN KERJA BAGUS ? KENAPA DENGAN BENTUK BADAN YG GEMUK OR KURUS ITU?OR BILA NAK KAHWIN ? SEMUA ITU BUKAN UKURAN UNTUK MASUK KE SYURGA,APA KES TIBE-TIBE EMO PULA,ADUHHH…

ACTUALLY,SEKARANG NI BARU SAYA SEDAR SUDAH PUN BULAN OKTOBER,LAGI DUA BULAN DAH MASUK TAHUN BARU 2013,SO ADAKAH AZAM TAHUN 2012 SAYA TERCAPAI ?OR MASIH SEMPAT KER UNTUK MENCAPAI NYER..SILA REVIEW BALIK….ERKHHH..UURMMM..HMMMM..MMMM…SECARA JUJUR NYER LA KAN,I WAS ON THE TRACK,BUT STILL FAR TO THE FINISH LINE,AIIYYOOKKK  >.<

MAYBE BECAUSE ONE OF THE REASON I WAS TEMPORARY STAFF,YET,AND THAT’S WHY I CANT BUY A CAR,THEN BRING FAMILY FOR HOLIDAY ??? URM..MAYBE POSTPONE NEXT YEAR,WITH THE HELP FROM MY BF FOR DRIVE AND LITTLE BIT OF FINANCIAL SUPPORT FROM HIM,I THINK,HEHE..

RECENTLY,I HAVE BEEN DISCUSS WITH MY BOY ABOUT THE FUTURE..BLAH..BLAH…BLAH…IT STILL EARLY TO DECIDE WHEN,WHICH,WHERE,WHO AND HOW…BUT FOR THE PLANNING,INSYALLAH,NEXT YEAR MAYBE “THE YEAR” OR MORE ACCURATELY,LAST YEAR AS BACHELLORETE ;)

SEBAB I DA PROMISE DENGAN DIA,SO I HAVE TO KEEP THE PROMISE,RIGHT.ORANG LAIN SELALU CAKAP,ALA LAMBAT LAGI,LAGI SETAHUN TU,BUT,AFTER I MADE MY OWN RESEARCH,I TAKE ONE YEAR TO COMPLETE THE WEDDING,STEP BY STEP..BECAUSE UNTUK MENDAPAT KAN MUKA AND KULIT YG CANTIK,SEKURANG-KURANG NYER 6 BULAN ,UNTUK MENDAPAT KAN BODY YG CANTIK LAK,LEBIH KURANG 8 BULAN,BARU NAMPAK HASIL NYER,BELUM LAGI UNTUK TEMPAH DEWAN,KENA BOOKING DULU,AT LEAST 6 BULAN SEBELUM TU,IN CASE DA PENUH,DA PENING KEPALA,

ANYHOW I FEEL FREAK OUT!!!

ANYWAY,I WANT MY WEEDING IS SIMPLE,VINTAGE AND OF COURSE ECO-FRIENDLY,ANT I WANNA BE  WEDDING PLANNER ON MY OWN WEEDING,SAVING RIGHT,HEHE ;)

ALLRIGHT, THIS IS LITTLE BIT “CORETAN” OF MY HEART FEELING ABOUT THE WEEDING,MY MUM ALWAYS ASK ME,APA LA YG ADA PADA SYED TU,IBU TENGOK DIA XDE LA KAYA PUN,NAK KATA HANDSOME PUN TAK JUGA,GIGI BERTERABUR JER,ENTAH SOLAT ENTAK TAK DIA TU..DALAM HATI CAKAP,”HE WAS BAD BOY, THAT’S WHY I LIKE!!!”

Adengan Raya

Da seminggu da kita menyambut Syawal,so saya ucapkan Minal Aidzin Wal ;)
Tahun ini agak meriah,plus apa yg diingin kan tercapai,contoh nyer merapatkan silaturahim yg semakin renggang itu serta memeriahkan sambutan Aidilfitri dengan mercun-mercun yang ada,sekian ! Hehe..Memandangkan opah merupakan warga yg paling tua dalam carta teratas,so memang sangat ramai la yg berkunjung ke rumah,bukan setakat saudara mara yg dekat,tapi yg jauh hiruk piruk pun datang,belum campur lagi yg anak2 angkat tu,klo diikutkan la,kalo dikira la kan..lebih kurang 30 buah keta kot,huhu..1st day jer da nak dkat 10 buah kete yg dtg,yg tu baru yang duduk dekat area KL,masuk ari kedua da start yang jauh sikit datang..since semakin lama semakin ramai,so masuk ari raya ketiga,saya serta adik2 yg lain cabut lari dari umah,gara-gara tak larat nak melayan saudara mara,hehe..

Peluang yang ada,tak dilepas kan,so kitaorg pakat g Midvalley,perbelanjaan sume ditanggung oleh sugar daddy kesayangan @ pak cik,seronok,bile berperangai macam budak2 nie,main game la,tgk toys la,itu la,ini la,macam-macam hal..hehe..tapi sempat la "mengepau" pak cik,minta kasut Vans,hehe  ;)

Then,niat di hati nak tengok cerita Expandable 2,tetapi malang nyer adik ku @ alang baru berumur 14 tahun,tinggi da ok,tp muka la spoil,muka budak,huhu..ingat konon nyer lepas la dr pengawasan "pengawa" yg bertugas,tetapi "TIDAKKKK !!!!" ,terpaksa la tukar tiket,nasib baik dapat tukar,kena la pecah dua group,aku dan adik ku tengok cerita Step Up Revolution,yang lain tgk cite Expendable 2..Tetapi disebabkan penukaran itu,walapun cerita itu sekadar "So You Think You Can Dance",malang nyer ceritu tu memang Superb la,kebetulan aku mmg follow cerita tu,dari Step Up 1 sehingga la RevoLution ini,kali ni memang best la,bukan stakat coreography,tapi diaorg tu mob with the message ,so i give 4 star la,hehe.

Rupe -rupe nye sepanjang kegembiraan yang dinikmati itu,ada sesuatu yang berlaku di rumah.Jeng Jeng Jeng..apakah dia ???  benda yg paling ingin di ngelak itu,terjadi juga..urm..mak cik sorang ni,actually pangkat nenek da pun,dia memang suka nak mempertemu kan perempuan yang single-single untuk diperkenalkan kepada lelaki-lelaki yang single-single juga..so kali ni cepu cemas pun bermula,apabila yang tak best nye saya telah dipilih untuk dipertemu jodohkan dengan seseorang...OHHH !!! Sungguh Tak Best !!!  Opah ku pula mengiya kan aja,padahal dia tahu kot saya dah ada Syed yang bertakhta di hati ini,selamba jer opah saya cakap, "ala,kalo tiada tanda -tanda dia nak kat kamu,buat apa kamu nak kat dia,",perghhh,bila dengar macam tu ase nak ngamuk pun ada,tau la Syed tu tak seberapa,tapi cukup la dia bagi saya,lagipun tiada yang perfect pun di muka bumi ini.

Oh ya,FYI,opah saya ni memilih kasih,pantang nampak yang "bagus" sikit,pasti dia akan menganggung kan,pastu dia suka melebihkan lelaki dari perempuan,sbb tu la dia marah saya kalo saya marah adik2 laki jikalau diaorg duk membongkang ajer,tak pasal2 kena sound dengan opah,alasan dia "Lelaki x payah buat kerja rumah,diaorg duduk jer"..dalam hati berkata "aik,Rasulullah pun lelaki juga,buat jer kerja rumah"..tapi malas nak menjawab,orang tua kan,mana nak ngaku kalah,asyik nak menang jer,huhu..

Seriously memang agak terasa dengan perangai opah itu,sbb tu la mula melancar kan protes terhadap opah,huhu..propaganda semata-mata.Automatic terus mengadu kepada si dia@kekasih hati,dan dia pun apa lagi mula la terasa hati,kebetulan dalam masa yg sama dia perlu ke kursus perhotelan selama lebih dari seminggu,dia lebih banyak mendiamkan diri,nak call pun payah,sms tetap di balas,cuma untuk telefon tu kurang,sibuk kata nya..before dia berangkat untuk Outstation dia menghantar mesej,pasrah bunyi nya...dan malam itu,lagu yang di nyayikan,penuh dengan pengertian..

Cintailah aku sepenuh hati
Sesungguhnya aku
Tak ingin kau pergi
Takkan mampu ku hadapi dunia ini

Betapa hidupku takkan pernah sama
Bila kau tinggalkan ku
Tetaplah di sini saling memiliki
Selama-lamanya

 

Sanggupkah dirimu
Untuk bertahan
Hingga waktu tak berjalan
Mencintaiku
Walau bintangku tak terang

 

Genggamlah tanganku dan peluklah diriku
Saatku jatuh nanti menangis sepi..

 

 

Seseorang pernah memberitahu saya bahawa banyak kan bersabar dalam perhubungan,perlu banyak-banyak bersabar,jikalau yg kecil macam tu sudah goyah,bagaimana pula dengan yang bakal mendatang,yg lagi besar terutama dalam alam rumah tangga,dan yang penting sekali,ikhlas lah mencintai dia..itu pesanan dari sesorang yang pernah kecundang dalam perkahwinan,pernah mencintai,dicintai dan dicurangi..Saya sangat menyayangi dia,saya sendiri tidak tahu apa yang akan terjadi jika kehilangan dia...



Tuhan jagakan Dia untukku

ALLAH itu lebih mengetahui...

ALLAH  itu lebih mengetahui...

ALLAH hu’alaam.Betul la kata pepatah “kita hanya mampu merancang,tetapi Tuhan yang menentukan seglanya”.Tapi InsyaALLAH klo segala usaha dilakukan dengan ikhlas,tanpa mengenal erti susah,serta niat yang betul,pasti akan dipermudahkan ALLAH atas segala urusan yg kita lakukan.Setiap apa yg berlaku,pasti ada hikmah dari-Nya,bukan sekadar untuk menguji namun untuk menghadiahkan kepada yg lagi baik dari apa yang kita ingin kan,usaha dan tawakal lah kepada yang satu iaitu ALLAH.

Disini,sy ingin memohon maaf kepada Balqis,serta Cik Marni dan juga Efie Syafinas,maaf kerana planning untuk berbuka sama terkubur begitu sahaja,padahal sudah beria-ia mahu berjumpa serta berbuka sama,tibe-tibe terus senyap,huhu..

Ari jumaat aritu,something happen,sume gara-gara duit ku dalam account hilang,kire-kire half gaji la,memang betul angin,terus spoil mood,da la ari-ari balik lambat,badan penat,pastu tgk account,duit ilang pula,dah pergi bank da,tapi x dapat trace pihak yg tidak bertnaggung jawab,bila mengadu kat BF aku,dia lagi la hangin,mengamuk dia aritu,dia cakap,”da la dulu aku kena seribu lebih,pastu akak aku kena 8 K,skang nie bini aku pula kena tibai”,memang aritu dia x dapat control la,sampai pecah ATM tu ,lokasi dimana ATM tu kena pecah,secret la,huhu..

Da la setiap hari balik lambat buat OT,badan letey,pastu konon nyer duit elaun OT nak buat g shopping raya la,aleh2 macam tu lak jadi nyer,huhu.YA ALLAH,YA RABBI,YA KARRIM.Dugaan Kau kali ini benar-benar menguji hamba –Mu ini.Memang betul-betul serabut la time tu,kebetulan pula badan memang sangat letih.Jadi bila buat OT,bbuka pun kat ofis,kat sini xde bazaar,setakat kedai mamak jer,jadi makan sekadar apa yg ada la,makan pun ciput jer,huhu..jadi bila balik,terus mandi and kejar kan solat taraweh,bile balik niat untuk makan nasi terkubur begitu sahaja,terus masuk bilik,terus tido,bdn letih sgt,huhu,dua ari berturut mcm tu,da la terlajak bangun,tak sahur pula tu,so badan memang penat dan letih.

Tapi ku gagahkan jua untuk ke ofis ari sabtu bagi menyiapakan kerja yg remeh temeh,bila buat kerja pun seperti kura-kura,sangat lambat,slow motion jer,alahai..balik umah kul 3 lebih la,balik t uterus baring,da x larat da,pening pale pula sbb panas..sedar2 pun azan asar,so ingat nak g mandi la,pastu cam x larat jer,and ada org lain dlm bilik air,so bangun pun dengan kadar yg lambat,berta’tih ker toilet,ase nak basuh kepala,bagi segar bugar badan ni.masuk la bilik air,stat “dizzy” lagi,then terus “blackout”,x sedar apa,sedar2 kepala basah gara2 kepala paip patah,maybe terhantuk kot or terpaut ker sampai patah,then kepala mmg rasa sgt pening dan berat,bahu pun sakit..apa yg berlaku ialah “Saya jatuh pengsan dalam bilik air”.Sekian...

Memang sangat penat and badan letih..lpas sedar t uterus terbaring jer dlm bilik,bile nak berbuka baru bangun g meja makan,itu pun alang yg tolong pimpin kan,arigatou  !!! >.<

Dalam masa yg sama,dapat sms dari Haziq kawan BF,dia inform yg BF masuk hospital,huhu..dalam hati,patut la x reply sms pun..then lewat petang tu,rupe nyer alang inform BF yg sy jatuh pengsan,itu pun dapat tau dari opah ngan ibu,cuz dia terus call ibu tanya keadaan saya,since masing2 pun jatuh sakit,my mum suruh both of us,TAK PAYAH JUMPA !!! PERGI MANDI,BASUH KEPALA DAN REST SEPUAS-PUAS NYER,FAHAM !!!  Then nak tak nak follow jer la cuz mmg tak larat kot,perkara tu berlanjutan sampai ke hari ahad,that’s why la saya x on9 or tak call  kamu wahai Aqis or Efie or Marni,saya memang x larat mahu keluar,itu pun bile gi kerja amek half day sahaja,huhu..Saya memang teringin mahu jumpa kamu semua,tapi apa kah daya,badan ini x larat..Gomeney  >.<

Untuk dia

Chicky song..i like it ..make me fun and think about him ..Segala-gala untuk dia..Untuk dia

I think about it a lot ...

Nobody said it was easy...
No one ever said it would be this hard..
Oh it such a shame for us to apart..

*it keep repeating..again..again..yesterday i got quarell with this guy,i told him that i love my boy really much..hence it keep pushing me..how can he not understand that i'm belong to someone else..
then today,i got text from someone,he asking for help..confuse but just keep to calm down,something just happen last night,i thought it's was nothing but it's instict,yup we should trust our instinct..It was my boy...it makes me ill..but i love him..

Berbuka Puasa

Sudah hampir 10 hari kita berpuasa dibulan Ramadhan,bak kata ibuku kepada anak-anaknya,sekarang ni kita sedang mendaki bukit,hampir ke puncak nyer,bersabar ya anak-anak,hampir saban tahun pasti dia akan menungkapkan kata-kata itu.Aku tadah kan telinga mendengar,lebih kepada memberi kepada adik ku yg last sekali untuk berpuasa...urmmm..sudah darjah satu,tujuh tahun,namun masih gagal untuk berpuasa penuh..hanya mampu mengelengkan kepala sahaja..dalam hati,terdetik..adakah dia akan mengikut jejak bapa nya..aduhhh..risau seribu kali risau dibuatnyer..


Setiap tahun,bila tibe jer bulan Ramadhan,opah ku mesti confirm punya akan suruh aku buat kuih kegemarannyer.."Ekin,nnt petang buat kueh buah melaka,tak pun buat sardin gulung(sardin roll)"
dan tanpa mengingkar arahan dan patuh pada nya,terus ajer aku setuju "baik lah opah"..

Tapi..belum kesempatan nak buat nyer,hehe..gomeney..bukan apa,sbb bila weekend jer mesti akan pergi bazar,kire kat umah just masak nasi jer,then beli lauk apa yg patut,pastu murtabak ngan tepung pelita da jadi pekara wajib dlm menu..itu la dia..hehe...

Bile berbuka jer macam2 plan dibuat,nak masak apa,nak makan apa,Makan kat luar ker,buffet ker,lpas tu mula la sibuk search kat internet,tempat mana yg best..

Lum apa-apa lg,da dpt email,senarai Buffet Ramadhan,5 pages listing Buffet di hotel-hotel dan juga restaurant-restaurant kat area KL ngan Selangor..

Since peluang da depan mata,terus call BF,ajak berbuka sama,sbb last year,xdpt buke,so kali ni mencari peluang untuk berbuka,dia terus kata Yes,no problem…Terus la kasi beberapa nama tempat kat dia,then kitaorg decide nak pergi Cruise,Putrajaya..tetapi malangnyer,kena tempat seminggu lagi awal,then bila nak tempah,ari yg dipilh itu full pula,terpaksa la kuburkan ajer niat mahu berbuka di Cruise,huhu..

Last sekali,kitorg decide nak pergi kat area dekat ngan umah,so Hartamas or Solaris menjadi pilihan..setelah tinjuan dibuat,Poyo menjadi pilihan..pelik tetapi benar,itu lah hakikatnyer,bahawa nama café itu ialah Poyo,hehe..terus buka website,tgk tmpat and map,dimana ia berada,hehe...

Lum kul 530 pm  lg,tepat kul 5 pm,Si dia da call,gtau da sampai,park kat tmpat biasa,tepat pukul 530 pm,terus aku bergegas keluar,menuju ke tempat parking,tak sabar mahu berjumpa dengan si dia,senyum lebar bila dia membuka kan pintu kereta,dan kami terus pecut menuju ke lokasi...

Cari punya cari,rupe nyer cafe Poyo itu di Publika,memang dekat dengan rumah ku la..sabor jer la..Publika mmg penuh dengan Boutiqe,Shop,Cafe dan pelbagai lagi,kalo tak silap,3 level is Shopping complex and the upper and the rest is full of Apartment,sewa duduk kat situ jer around 10 k per month,huhu...

Akhirnya,tempat yg dicari pun dijumpai,area Ground Floor..nice place..Cafe Poyo 

Bufet yg memang best,makan kambing,ikan bakar,satay,Chicken wing BBQ,bihun soup,buah tembikai,tembikai susu,bubur kacang yg pelbagai jenis dan bermacam-macam lagi la..

Ramadhan

Assalammualaikum,Ahlan wasalan !

Harapnyer lum terlambat lagi la untuk mengucapkan Selamat berpuasa,walaupun hampir seminggu berpuasa,huhu..Seriously,time fly so fast,only left three week to Eid month,hence masih terasa seperti baru semalam solat tarawih untuk malam pertama.Bulan Ramadhan bererti bulan untuk umat-umat nyer membuat serta menambah pahala,maka segerakan lah mengerjakan solat,solat 5 waktu itu yang penting berbanding yg sunat..kadang-kadang memang tak paham bile org ramai berpusu-pusu nak ke masjid untuk Tarawih,Alhamdulilah..namun agak terkilan bile yg wajib iaitu yang lima waktu itu dibuat dihujung waktu,Astagafirullahalazim..wahai sahabatku,betulkan niat tu,InsyaALLAH dipermudahkan segala urusan,amin..

Bak kata org ramai juga,bulan Ramadhan nie dimurahkan rezeki,sehingga 90 % tingginya dr apa yang kita dapat,org ramai juga mula cube skil memasak dgn membuat kuih raya untuk dijual,sebelum Ramadhan lagi,awal2 da buat sample untuk taster,tapi pelik bila puasa yg lepas tu tak teringat untuk mengantinya,aleh2 bile da hampir waktu nya,mula sibuk nak bayar fidyah,dengan alasan tinggal puasa,Astag'firullahalazim..ALLAH kasi masa setahun kot untuk mengganti kan,tapi tak buat juga,YA ALLAH,Engkau ampunkan lah dosa-dosa hambamu ini...

Tak kurang juga yg bila dah nak dekat Ramadhan,lagi dua hari nak 1st Ramadhan,akan sibuk menghantar sms,emel serta membuat panggilan telefon kepada yg terdekat untuk meminta maaf...

""Saya terbaca dari artikel ustaz zaharuddin, mengenai malam Lailatul Qadar. Pada malam tersebut, malaikat akan mengamikan doa2 orang mukmin kecuali 4 golongan iaitu:

1) Peminum arak
2) Penderhaka ibubapa
3) Pemutus silaturrahim
4) Individu yang bermusuhan

InsyaALLAH, bagi golongan pertama dan kedua itu akan dimaafkan,namun yang ketiga dan keempat itu paling menakutkan,kita buat baik macam mana pun tetap akan ada orang yg berhati busuk pada kita,contoh paling nampak sekali ialah "Nabi itu sebaik-baik makhluk ciptaan ALLAH,namun sehingga kini ada orang yg tidak menyukai dia,serta membenci dia,walaupun dia sudah tiada berabad lamanyer..."

Kalau kita tiada kesalahan tidak perlu memaohon maaf
Apabila kita ada kesalahan dengan orang maka hak dia untuk maafkan atau tidak
tetapi sikap/sifat tidak memaafkan keslahan orang yang dah minta maaf bukan sifat orang yang bertaqwa
Memang haknya tidak mahu memaafkan jika kita buat salah terhadapnya
Tetapi sifat orang bertaqwa sentiasa memaafkan orang
Tidak peliklah dia tidak memaafkan


Namun bagi saya,saya  suka ambil yang jernih,walaupun kadang-kadang pekara itu agak pahit ditelan,kerana saya percaya "doa orang yang dianiyakan itu dimakbulkan ALLAH",sahabatku yang lain,meminta maaf itu perlu ikhlas jangan sekadar meminta maaf,namun masih melakukan kata-kata belakang,masya'allah...

p/s : diharap Ramadhan kali ini membawa erti keceriaan kepada anda semua (^ ___^ )v

one piece - the new world

Makin lama makin jatuh cinta pada one piece,Aishiteru !!!
Pastu kadang-kadang gelak sesorang bile tgk kerenah Luffy,Usop-kun ngan Chopper...
Memang bengong and totally moron dengan perangai diaorg tu..
Then Zorro tak abis-abis akan gaduh dengan Sanji-ku .Bakka !!!
Nammy-san lak memang giler harta,x pandang lain kalo dengan duit or treassure.. ;)
Paling sempoi ialah Robin-chwannn..memang stail-la...
Tapi tu la bile part2 menghayat hati,ley touching lak..tibe-tibe rasa panas jer pipi ni..
aduhhh,air mata meleleh lak...aduhhh...  ;p
Apa-apa pun..One piece memang best !!!

One piece

It's been a while,I didn't post any entry,not because too busy with work,but the true is i feel more rejected to write and post it,feel to much burden on it,but as time past i feel my mood is better than day before,hence i wish the readers don't get upset if i don't post any entry okies ;)

Time fly so fast,now it just a corner to fullfill our responbility as muslim which "Ramadhan" is coming,and as muslim we have to fasting during "Ramadhan" month,not to late to wish "Selamat menyambut Ramadhan",maybe i'll be busy with my duty as jobless???    =,="
No la..I'll defininetly will be busy with my job and i got a plan during Ramadhan feast,i wish and hope our plan goes well,InsyaALLAH,amin ^___^

This moment is perfect,i just wish and hope that this moment going well and better and more more perfect.Still with MAA Takaful,still in contract,add 3 month,hence will be off on September,and after that,i don't know,either will be continue or not,rezeki belum nampak sepenuhnya,compare to other,their also take around one year to be a permenant staff.My intention is to raise my sallary,to support my family,that's all,full stop.Then,once i got permenant,i want my own car with my own money,plus maybe another six to eight month,i wanna go to next level,another phase of my life ;)
Maybe next year,InsyaALLAH,it just a planning because both of us now really miserable,much much to cath up another thing in our life.Just pray to ALLAH for the best ^__^

By watching one piece really make me happy,though i bad mood on that day,but when i look at Luffy D.monkey,just bu watching him make me smile,a lot !!!

Whisper...

You call me again late...in the middle of night..

Sayang...

Oh..It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

Slowly you said you "Ayang..i love you so much..."

Deep..calm..and it really make me weak by hearing your voice...

Again you said "I miss you..."

You know exactly my point of weak..."you hug me tightly..kiss my forehead..."

Then..you're gone...

I don't know where have you've been...

p/s: someone ask whose is better ? Friend or Boyfriend?

      and i said "His better than anyone i ever meet ...he was my bestfriend...

 

LARA

 ;(

CONVERSATION BETWEEN MUM,DAUGHTER AND HER BECOME SON FUTURE IN LAW

MUM : ALONG,ARE YOU SURE YOU CAN TRUST HIM ? NAMPAK DIA TU KADANG-KADANG SERIOUS,KADANG-KADANG MAIN-MAIN JER IBU TENGOK.

DAUGHTER : MULA-MULA MASA ALONG KAWAN DENGAN DIA PUN ALONG ADA GAK FEELING MACAM TU,KURANG YAKIN JUGA,TAPI ALONG JUST SERAHKAN PADA ALLAH,KALO ADA JODOH ADALA,KALO TAKDE,TAKDE LAH,TAK NAK FIKIR SANGAT…

MUM:URM..TAPI IBU TENGOK,DIA TU MACAM BELUM BERSEDIA JER..KADANG-KADANG IBU TENGOK DIA TU ADA WAWASAN,KADANG-KADANG IBU TENGOK CAM DAH KAHWIN JER..ALONG BETUL KER NAK KAT DIA TU ?

DAUGHTER: IBU..ALONG PUN LUM READY LAGI KOT..LAMBAT LAGI KOT NAK KE ARAH TU,AT LEAST BIAR LA ALONG DAPAT KERJA PERMENANT DULU,PAHTU PALING TERUK PUN ADA KERETA LA,THEN BARU FIKIR KE ARAH ITU,YER..MEMANG LA DA SETAHUN LEBIH  ALONG KAWAN DGN DIA,CUMA BARU SEBULAN DUA NI BARU ALONG NAMPAK LA DIA JENIS MACAM  MANA,BARU LA ALONG FAHAM PERANGAI DIA TU..

MUM: HA,BARU SEBULAN DUA NI? SELAMA NI KAMU KAWAN DENGAN DIA? MACAMANA?

ALONG: SELAMA NI TAK MENGAHARAP SANGAT,TERSERAH PADA JODOH..CUMA BARU SEKARANG NIE JER..I NEVER THOUGH I NEED HIM…

THEN..SILENT..PHONE IS RINGGING..

B.F.S.I.L: ASSALAMMUALAIKUM..

MUM:WAALAIKUMMUSALAM,HA,SYED EH..SYED NAK BAWA EKIN KELUAR YER..

B.F.S.I.L: AAH,SAYA NAK MINTA IZIN,NAK JUMPA EKIN,NAK BAWA DIA KELUAR,BOLEH KER?

MUM:BOLEH,TAPI IBU NAK TAU NAK BAWA DIA KEMANA? BALIK KUL BERAPA? EKIN NIE KALO DA KELUAR,MACAM2 DIA MINTA..

B.F.S.I.L: HEHE,SAYA NAK MINTA IZIN  LA,KALI NI HANTAR LEWAT SIKIT,DALAM PUKUL 8 MALAM,BOLEH KER?

DAUGHTER:ALONG NAK BALIK KUL 10 PM,SEKIAN ! (SAMBIL WAT MUKA KESIAN+MERAYU+KEGUSARAN+MUKA 10 SEN)

MUM:URM,DENGAR TU SYED,DIA NAK BALIK KUL 10 MALAM,OK,IBU BENARKAN SYED KELUAR DENGAN EKIN,TAPI MAKE SURE BALIK ON TIME,FAHAM ? KAMU NIE BETUL2,JANGAN NAK MAIN-MAIN PULA,KALO TAK,SAMPAI KE LUBANG CACING IBU CARI NANTI.

B.F.S.I.L:ASTAGAFIRUL,ARWAH ABAH DA PESAN DA KAT SAYA,JANGAN MAIN-MAIN,INSYAALLAH,SAYA BETUL NAK DEKAT EKIN NIE..

MUM:KALO INGAT PESAN ARWAH,ALHAMDULILAH,JANGAN MAIN-MAIN YER.SYED DEKAT MANA? DAH NAK SAMPAI KER?

B.F.S.I.L:DA SAMPAI DA NI,ADA DEKAT BAWAH,TENGAH TUNGGU EKIN SIAP JAP..

MUM:LA,NAPE X MASUK JER,TUNGGU JAP YER,DIA KALO DA MAKE UP,MMG LAMA..ALONG !!! SYED DA KAT BAWAH TU,CEPAT SIKIT..

DAUGHTER: ALLRIGHT, SIAP DA, ALONG BALIK KUL 10 YER,HEHE..THANX IBU,NAK CELEBRATE BDAY,YIPPIEEE  ;)

SELEPAS BERSALAMAN, JOURNEY TO THE WEST PUN BERMULA..IT WAS REALLY FUN AND I NEVER KNEW I NEEDED HIM MORE THAN I CAN IMAGINE,I THOUGH I CAN BE INDEPENDENT,JUST LIKE MISS INDEPENDENT,BUT IN THE END OF THE DAY,I JUST REALIZE THAT I’M REALLY NEED HIM IN MY LIFE,NOT AS MY LOVER BUR MORE TO BESTFRIEND,WHICH I CAN SHARE MY EMOTIONAL FEELING WITH HIM,LIKE A GIRL NEED HIS PAPA TO BUY HER AN ICE CREAM.I JUST REALIZE THAT WHAT DO I DO WITHOUT HIM ?

I FEEL NOW I’M REALLY LOVE HIM,MORE THAN BEFORE..MORE THAN JUST CRUSH..I NEED HIM IN MY LIFE…

P/S: HE GIFT ME A BLACK HEELS FOR MY BIRTHDAY AND BRING ME TO THE PLACE THAT I REALLY WANT TO GO.IF I WORE HIS SHOES,I WILL NEVER BUY THAT HEELS,TOO EXPENSIVE ,BETTER BUY 500 G EXTERNAL HARD DISK =,=

Boy's 2

Dear bloggie..did u guy still remember i post entry about Boy's..
okies,now i would like to reveal again..reveal again,siighhhhh..no need la..
juz wanna continue...

Still remeber about Mr.A,Miss B,Mr.X,Miss Y and Mr.H....

Urmm...mmm..ok,ok..let me clearify here..FYI..I'm really love Mr.H,there is no space for other guy,no matter how handsome he is ,like Mr.X...for me,Mr.H is the best among the the best.Full Stop !!!

Actually,i was the Miss Y and my boy was Mr.H...
Mr.H not only as lover,but he also my bestfirend after my mum ok,plus he also my driver,so i juz told him i wanna go that place,he will bring me there,he also my "Ustaz",if there something bother me,such like "apa maksud hadis nie,apa terjemahannye ?" ,he always tell me the answer,again..he also my mechanic,my bodyguard,my..my..my..etc..etc..etc...For me,he everything to me,i dont kniow how i feel if he's no there,i mean,yeahh..i can be independent,but when his no beside me,i feel so lonely..I HATE THIS LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP !!!

Ok,ok..there something i wanna tell u..about this guy,or i call him as Mr.A..He was my colluege,
almost every morning he will come to my place,and chit-chat,chit-chat..firstly,i feel he was friendly..but after a long hour,it's different..it become annoying..SERIUS..SANGAT ANNOYING..SUDAH TAHAP MENYAMPAH !!!

Mula-mula ok j la,yelah as ofismate,so layan je la..tp..lama kelamaan...mesej dia da lain da...ajak keluar makan,xnak reramai..lunch berdua jer,g jauh sikit dari opis..nak tolong hantar balik,alasan..malam2 nie x elok balik sorang2..urm..pahtu semakin lain bila he said "i miss you"...then bertamabah lain bila dia cakap "minat and suka dgn ekin".."sanggup jumpa ibu untuk bawa keluar"..yg nie da mula sangat lain macam...time ni mmg da ignore giler da,dia anta msg pun da x balas,apatah lagi bila call ----> terus REJECT !!!

Then sebab x tahan sangat dengan layanan dia tu,bila da cakap sudah ada BF pun,dia tetap juga begitu,aduhhh,da cakap baik pun x dengar,nak tak nak terpaksa lah gtau Mr.H about this guy,tak sanggup da,da tak tahan da..then,i told my boy,Mr.H..he ask for the number,Mr.A number..so nak tak nak beri je la nombor tu..then..after 10 minute,Mr.H texting.."B da call budak tu da,mlm nnt B call ayang ok,ad hal jap.."

Lepas text tu,that Mr.A memang da stop hantar sms,call pun xde...then i'm asking Mr.H,what exactly he told that guy untill he not sms n call me anymore...

Urmm.."Hello,ni A yer,so aku Syed..aku nak cakap sikit la..TOLONG JANGAN KACAU EKIN lagi,ni da tiga kali dia ngadu kat aku pasal kau,kali pertama aku tahan,kedua pun tahan..masuk ketiga ni,kau da lain macam jer,smpai nak jumpa ibu dia lak..yg nie aku panas ni.."."Eh,xde la,kitorg satu opis,xde apa pun,x kacau pun.."Ye,aku tau,tapi jgn la lebih2,setakat kawan jer,tp ada batas gak..mmg aku jauh dr dia,tp jgn lak sampai aku turun sana jumpa kau,ok..lpas nie aku xnak dgr ekin ngadu pasal kau lg,faham".."ahah,sory sory k"...

urm...mmm..what i can said more..on monday,that guy,Mr.A didn't come to my place,plus he not even look at me,no more glance,malah kasi jelingan maut kot..hahaha..amek kau,ekin..sape suh ngadu kat BF,,da tu,cakap baik xdgr,terpaksa la guna cara kasar..huhu...

BTW..that was MR.H..he was my Bodyguard ;)

itu pun rasa nyer..cam dia ley control lg,kalo tak..urm..geleng pale je la...  ;p

Selamat Ulang Tahun ~

As usuall..same like last year,Cakur is the first person to wish..then later..my mum..and..not forget to my one of my bestfriend,Efie...Arigataouuu  !!!!!!!!  Kasamhamida  ^____^

For those yg wish kat FB tu,sy amat sangat menghargai nyer,cume tak sempat nak balas jer,sorry ekh..huhu..ape-apa pun trimas yer...jasa mu sume amat ku hargai ^____^

And not forget to my lovely sugar daddy @ my uncle @ Achik,awal 2 minggu dia dah wish and he give a Shopping bag..tu first time dengar "MANGO" brand..hehe..trimas yer..arigatou ;)

By the way..umo sudah 25 tahun,huhu...Waaarghhhhh  >.<

Crush

Yeah,it's you..

I think i got a crush on you..

so sweet like caramel..

sometime too sour to taste...

you are sweet caramel

come to me..

come on let's go and have fun out there..

there is rainbow outside...

here too much cloudy..

come on sweet caremel ;)

Long distance relationship

Long distance relationship??? huh..sometime it feel so booorrriiinnnggggg......Because when u look at other couple,u wish ur boy were beside u,u wish that u can cuddle ur boy very tightly...But sometime it also good for those people feel wanna "test the market" by make another love..Poor right..Long long long time ago,i'm also such that person,always wanna "test the market",i feel very good when there is a guy said "I got crush on you" or even said "I love you".I feel OTT,everytime i look an "emo boy" i definetly wanna test him,it so interesting.I'm melting when look at the "emo" faces,my cup of tea ^____^ 
Terutama dlm cite coffee price,mr.waffle..Hyung !!!!

BUT..when i'm grow up...i'm slowly feel akward...i don't know why..but I don't feel wanna "test market" anymore,i don't have any feeling toward any guy's that come to approach me,even that guy totally was preety boy,handsome,good looking,rich.body builder..but still that feeling didn't come..

UNTILL..He come to me,i don't know him,where the hell he come from,he approach me,asking for a number,and i give it,and on that night,he call and ask for married..and what a suprise,i said yes..
On 18.04.2012,it was a our anniversary...But,it was a long distance relationship,after a year,he finally asking permision from my mum for asking me out,and that was our first date.He still like the first time i met him,i feel that he not change,what i mean..his love..his passion to me..still like the first time he ask for married..still the same,though it even more stornger..STAY THE SAME..STRONGER..

YET,it still long distance relationship...but,i become tired..tiring..too hold it any longer is tiring...

THEN..the feeling come again,i try to be loyalty..and i wish that feeling doesn't come..but look like i feel it,feel wanna too flirt..  ;p

ACTUALLY,it just a crush..and that boy look too ego to said Hi,compare his friend always giving a smile,so,i don't wanna to teasing him,though he got emo face..but  look alike now..when i have conversation with his friend,he will come to us,then just jump to the conversation..and sometime,when his friend come and give me a snack,he also come and "jump" to me and give a snack...Sekarang pun dah pandai dah nak berkirim-kirim salam...alahai...nafsu ku goyah....

Gloomy Moody

Setiap hari bermula dengan senyuman
Bahagia mula menerjah..
Gembira tak terkata
walaupun kau sekadar lalu didepan ku..
Namun ia tetap mengembirakan hati ini..

Tetapi..
Mengapa tiba-tiba kau berubah..
Mengapa aku tidak kau tegur seperti biasa..
Sedar kah engkau perkara ini mengusarkan ku..
Kau hancurkan aku dengan sikap mu..

Rela kan aku yang kita tidak ditakdirkan bersama...
Aku pasrah apabila kau mula menjauhkan diri..
Namun,aku tetap gembira jika kau gembira..
Kini hanya menunggu masa sahaja..
Aku mendoakan kau bahagia di hujung sana..

Boy's

Hi..wish u just in great mood,insyaALLAH..actually i post this entry only to share with you guy's  which how i feel toward this boys'...

There's rumors here about this boy as Mr.A always come and take a look at this girl,call as Miss B.Everyone keep teasing on her,she feel happy and sometime excited...but she know exactly what happen surround her and why that Mr.A always come and look at this department,she try to control it so that secret would not explode.But as much she keep trying to keep it,the hard the rumors spread.Poor to her..because the true is that Mr.A is keep stare to next Miss B,whose is Miss Y.He always texting to Miss Y.Miss Y try to be friendly with everyone since she was new there,actually hard to Miss Y to reply the text,yet she still reply Mr.A message just in name of friend...

As time past,Miss Y become more friendly and make a new friend there,where Miss Y feel comfortable with Mr.X.Miss Y knew that Mr.X always look at her as he walk pass by.Plus,Mr.X always asking about Miss Y to the other colleuge.There is happy moment between Mr.X and Miss Y which he stick Miss Y note pink colour at his PC,and everyone keep asking Mr.X whose the girl in pink note.He just smile.Big smile on his face.What a beautiful boy.

Yet,Mr.A doesn't know there is something between Mr.X and Miss Y,so he keep trying to seduce Miss Y,and Miss Y feel annoying with his attitude.She want to tell someone,whose that person was Mr.H.But she too afraid to tell Mr.H that there someone always teasing her.Because Mr.H and Miss Y was a lover,and Mr.X only a crush...Miss Y totally madly in love with Mr.H,she too afraid to tell the truth yet she feel that would hurt Mr.H feeling,but she really love Mr.H...

Budak

Faiz budak jahat !!!

Eee,mamat nie aku ase nak belasah je la !!!!!!!!

>.<

C.I.N.T.A

Baru-baru ni makin kerap aku "usha" mamat tu,seriously memang tergugat nafsu aku,haha..
bukan apa,suke tgk badan dia,tough pastu tinggi,putih lak tu,and yg paling bes muka dia garang,
my cup of tea,hehe...

Mula-mula masuk keje kat MAA Takaful nie,mmg mind set da setting yg aku tak kan pandang
lelaki lain la,tengok sekilas pun tak kan la,tapi aleh-aleh gini lak..ashame with myself ;p
Setelah pelbagai usaha dilakukan,dpt la sikit-sikit info pasal mamat ni,tp kalo tgk muke pun mmg
da tau dia tu budak,hehe..okies,nama dia Faiz,umur 22 tahun,duduk Shah Alam,student practical Uitm n dtg kerja bawa kereta...ok,anak org kaya..tinggi lebih kurang 17+ cm..muke putih,
n kitaorg pgil dia budak k-pop,sebab muke dia ala2 k-pop..haha..serious comey..mmg tergugat..
bnda camni pnah blaku kat aku dlu..hee...n lpas abes blaja,da nak sambong master..urm...
then sedang sibok aku ngah wat keje,dia lalu..dan aku pun cma biasa la blagak wat-wat tak pandang dia ,giler bajet,tp dlm hati beria-ria nak tgk dia,pahtu ofis mate aku,tiqa panggil..
"shiekin,dia lalu tu.."aku lak wat wat tak dengar..setelah dia duduk kembali ke tempat nyer,
baru aku pandang tiqa.."tiqa,jangan la panggil,nnt kantoi lak ngan faiz yg ekin usha dia"..hehe
Pahtu tiqa cakap .."la,dia pandang ekin kot,lame giler.."

Aduhhh..betul ker,berbunga-bunga dlm hati ku ini..stiap kali terserempak dgn dia,mst dia dan
kawannyer akan senyum kambing..alahai mst da kantoi yg aku usha dia,haha..ala,lantak la,peduli apa,usha jer,bukan nak tackle pun,suka tgk jer..lgpun aku sedang belajar untuk setia pada si dia...
Lagipun,org hensem confirm la da ada GF kan,kan,kan...
Bak kata Alif Aziz...
Sayang Sayang kamu dah berpunya..
bukan caraku untuk rebut pacar orang...
^_____^

Tapi tiqa kata.."ala kin,dia budak kot..."
Unfortunately,for whole entire relationship in my life..
,most of the man was a "boy's"..not much "guy's"...
terus teringat dekat sorang tu,nazrin..pe cite la dia skang..
mungkin ini langkah terbaik untuk kitaorg iaitu membawa diri masing-masing
,no string attached,eventhough we'r not even try to make up the thing's..
maybe i'm too afraid too lose him..but i'm allready lose him,right..
well,deep inside of my heart..if i got the second chance,
i will make the right thing..i miss you,naz...cikinaz..

STOP !!! STOP !!! STOP !!!

Sekarang ni kan sudah ada si dia,walapun in long distane relationship...
But,both of us would try to make the relationship no complicated as it can be..
Walaupun jauh,dan tak pernah dating and almost 4 month tak jumpa,
dan amat jarang texting but when got time,baru la kitaorg akan call..
pahtu apa lagi bergayut la sampai battery tu mampos,
that's the our way to make the relationship work...dan baru-baru ni,si dia
meluah kan isi hati nyer untuk kali ke berapa ntah iaitu berkahwin awal...
Ntah la,bukan tak sayang,seriously mmg sayang,tiada orang lain pun,
cuma macam belum puas lagi jadi orang bujang and jujur cakap belum
bersedia untuk melangkah ke arah seterusnya...

I'm happy being a bachelorette ^___^

Jatuh Cinta

L.O.V.E Girl  nae soneul japgo Fly
L.O.V.E Girl  uh uh, nareul mitgo Fly high
L.O.V.E Boy Ye-Ye-Yes we can fly to the sky
L.O.V.E Boy  I will take you there baby

I want you oh my love naman barabwajwo
Neomaneul saranghae sesang modu byeonhaedo
Oh my love neoman bomyeon ddwineun gaseum eonjeggajina
Neoman damgo isseulge

 Tell you, tell you sarangeul malhalge
Tell you, tell you nae sarang gobaekae
Love you, love you nae soneul jabajwo
Kiss you, kiss you yeongwonhi saranghae

Bak kata Liyana Jasmay-----

Memang benar aku sudah jatuh cinta
Memang benar aku hampir jadi resah
Bila cinta dari mu hadir bagai lena dari mimpi
Bagai perasa

Aduh,kali ni betul2 tergugat,nafsu tul..setelah 2 tahun single,then 1 year in relationship..the feeling come again..yes,i got a crush on you..what a shame,when i allready made a plan to marry my boy..nasib baik kamu tu budak,kalo tak dah lame aku tackle da..hehe  ;p

Kasih Kita...

Benarkah pencarian mimpi ini
Hanyalah dongengan cinta dalam pertaruhan
Haruskah pertemuan jiwa ini
Berakhir bersama air mata

Kesepian menemani jiwa di saat ku terluka
Bisakah aku mengenal cinta

Aku percaya pada takdir cinta kita
Yang telah terukir di dasar jiwaku
Yang merindu dirimu
Namun ku bertanya padanya
Haruskah ku percaya pada luka
Sebagai tanda kesetiaan cinta
Kasih kita
Sempurnakah lukisan cinta ini
Tanpa corak warna kasih lakaran suciku
Apakah coretan rintihan malam
Hanyalah mainan cintamu

Dear Efie ;)

Dear my little efie..

I don't know why wanna call you little efie,since we'r same age,rite ;)

But for me you still childish,OMG,hehe..just kidding dear..

I dont know how many long i didn't catch up wif you,but i'm really wish you doin juz fne.........
eventough after i read ur blog,i pretty sure your'e not fine..

I don't know what the hell is happen around you know,is it a BIG DISASTER ???

By the way dear,i'm not clear about JB ? Something there ? Tell me dear...

Ntah la dear,kadang2 aku pun tempuh perasaan yg sangat sangat sangat WORRY !!!

Aku pun tak tahu la,mungkin terlebey sgt pikir kot,biasa la nak jd second Einstien,
Einstien la sangat,hoho..kadang ase depressed ngan life,tak pun tibe-tibe jer ase give up
dengan life,horible giler ase..huhu

Mula-mula give up dengan career pahtu melalut dengan cintan lak,aduyai..
Tapi bile aku ase depressed sgt kan efie,mula2 aku ase nak cari tempat meluah kan
perasaan,so aku dengan rela hati pun nak luahkan kat BF..tapi..his missing..
then aku pun pendam j la..aleh2 jadi gunung berapi siot..huhu..orang yg
tak berkenaan pun kena sound ngan aku..jadi untuk tidak aku melakukan begitu lagi,
maka aku pun luahkan segala-gala nya pada ibu tercinta..mula2 malu kucing..
tapi lelama tu,jadi cakar harimau lak..haha..

So far,aku alhamdulilah,aku keje kat MAA Takaful,temporary jer..apa-apa pun aku
 wish kat kau gud luck with ur life,okies ;)

I LOVE YOU !!!!!!!   XOXO

crush

i got a crush on him..hari-hari tgk pun tak jemu ...
smile
^---------------^
sekali sekala cuci mata pun xpe ;)
dia duduk bahagian depan..
badan tough...
muke garang...
my cup of tea
^---------------^



p/s:ari-ari tgk chuck bass,dia jadi wallpaper,terus semangat nak wat keje ;)

Love

Sometime love is too hot to hold...

Though when two people going too far,they pretty sure they will belong together..

One of them maybe need some space too be cool and relax..

Even,I put a high effort to catch-up..but i feel exhausty..too tired to hold it...

And maybe at this point,i just realize..it's allready late...and maybe i should let it go...to fly away...

 .

Activity ~

Dear blog...

February and march had pass me..mostly in deep sorrow..on Feb month,my buddy laptop is broken,i mean the charger is "ROSAK" !!! sedih wooo hidup tanpa laptop,seperti dunia ini penuh dengan kegelapan ((T.T))

Then Marching is on...

First week of the March, i been discuss wif my soul mate about getting a new job,which mean i'm ready for the next phase of my life,i told him "if i get a new job which is better than before plus the salary is pay based on my qualification,so definetly i would not consider any other biz to married with you,dear "...We been discuss about it a lot actually that he already ask for "merisik" and allready asking about "hantaran" and so many others..Hence,the answer is simple,if i get a new job which is permanent and better than before,definetly the answer is "YES"...

Second week of March

He call me,told that he wanna give invitation card,his sis wedding on 10 march 2012,then i said ok,no problem.But,suddenly he texting me in the middle of night,the mesagge contain his father was coma,and the wedding just next day.Something goes wrong,which supposed the wedding should be merrier but become sorrow because of funeral of his father.Poor young boy.Silent is coming...

Third week of March

My life become miserable,i feel very very boring with that job.Then,i start make a movement,i told every family member,if they get any vacancy,just tell me,i wanna fill in.Then,my aunty said there is vacancy at Insurance,and she allready sent my resume.First come across my mind about it,what? Insurance? No way !!! But,somehow i feel that my instinct said i should go for it,maybe for an experiance...Then i got a call for Interview...

Forth week of March

Life is a dull as it past,Boring.Boring and boring.Orang cakap best kerja goyang kaki,duduk j tapi dapat duit.But for me,i dont think so,langsung xde kerja,totally mengantuk,1 jam tu terasa seperti sangat lambat.....dah la xde internet,pahtu xley nak cucuk pendrive dah kena "block",bila buka radio,dikatakan bising..aduh..sampai bila la aku akan terperuk di tempat kerja tu........
My heart is eager to get out from the "RSB",hence on thursday i got a call from the Insurance company,she said i should come for work,start 2 April 2012 but it just for temporary not permenant,without second taught,i said "YES",though i know the effect is after 3 month you will be unemployed,but never mind first of all i just wanna get the experiance,that the first thing come to mind,then i should work hard so i can get much money to survive ;)

In the end of the month,the last day,the freaky friday is arrived.I told to my mum that i wanna be a good person,yet i should be frankly to KR for the job i accepted,yet it only temporary.But,she argue,she said i only can tell him,KR after he give the salary,unfortunately i told him in the morning.KR get angry with me,he said i'm dissapointing him,he said i never think for the long term,again he said i just wanna go for have fun only.Too many excuse he give to me.I just silent,don't wanna argue with him since he too old to be mad for.

I list down the advantage if i took that job at Insurance ;

I got an experiance compare work with RSB,i just sit and relax

I can fulfill my resume

I can get a lot of friend,where i can get a lot of contact

I can extract a lot of knowledge since i'm seek for it

Yet,but not least of course my salary is double hence they pay me based on degree qualification compare to RSB,gaji tahap SPM jer...

So,is that my fault if i wanna work there,yup,temporary only..Sampai bile nak terperuk disitu...

What i feel irritating is,KR never listen to my word,and the impact to be too frankly with KR is,he didn't pay my salary...What a pity since i got comitment to filled for...

Terus jadi tak keruan,tak tentu hala dibuatnya,camna nak start kerja baru kalo xde "pitih" langsung.Ya Allah,Engkau tabahkan lah hati ku ini..My mum said,never mind,insyaALLAH pasti ada jalannya..Then,angah call.Seperti biasa,homesick ;')

Rupa-rupanya ada good news,Alhamdulilah,Angah dapat "pitih",triple from the expected,he wanna keep it,sebagai peti kecemasan,then ibu cakap "masalah" yg berlaku,and he give the green light.so peti kecemasan boleh dipergunakan,hehe ^^

Alhamdulilah,Allah itu sentiasa disisimu ;)

So,that were happen on last couple of week,and now i allready work as temporary staff,so wish me luck ;')

Shers The Chef

He was Chinese and British parentage.He got great looking and importantly great cooking ;)

Everytime look at him,the world just stop,freeze,arrghhh,really great when a hot chef cook a simple and delicious food,i'm loving it ;)

Like my mom said "dah la handsome,badan model,pandai masak lak tu,alahai...."

Even my mom also "melting" when look at him

(ciittt,cam pernah jumpe jer ;p )

Yes,at here,within this hour I LOVE MAN whose GREAT in COOKING !!!

Yet,he got a good voice ;)

Bisikan lebah ;)

Puas aku rayu

Puas aku desak

namun bayanganmu jua yang aku rindu

melalui hari-hari tanpamu

menyesakkan dadaku

meluluhkan jiwaku

dimana senyumanmu

dimana tawamu

dan sepi mula berlagu pilu

YA RABBUL IKRAM

sampaikan perasaanku ini padanya

doaku moga benar aku merindui dirimu...

Dan jika hayat sudah tiada,

iringilah doa dan air mawar bersama

luka dan duka lalui bersama

hanya didunia kita merasa

di ukhrawi,SEGALANYA..

p/s: i love the poem,i love when he feel sorry for what he done,i love when he call me in the middle night juz to said "i miss u,i love u",i love when he come here only for cuddle me,i love him so much,XOXO

Mari Belajar Bahasa Arab

Setiap pagi sebelum gi kerja,i usually take breakfast at home,my meal=nestum+bread toast/french toast+nescafe.Then,in mean time my mum always on television,especially Geng Bahasa Arab ,mostly 3 girl's and 3 boy's with their Ustazah,suke tengok diaorg yg kecil-kecil tu berbahasa Arab,so cute,comey tul,tibe-tibe terasa insaf dalam diri ini ;'(

Mana tak nyer,i usually proud to use English,hence even now still used this language instead my mother tounge,Malaysia,apa yg lagi menyedihkan bila langsung dan sangat lah kurang tahu berbahasa Arab.Supposed to be i as Muslimah should know Arabic,so it easy for us to read Al-Quran instead using Tafsir,so i wanna take inisiative to learn Arabic instead other language.I feel like I fall in Love with this language ^,^

So,this was a simple and easy Arabic ;)

Assalamualaikum=Selamat Sejahtera

Ahlan Wasalam=Selamat Datang

sabahalghair=selamat pagi
masaalghair=selamat petang

selamat malam=Tusbihu ‘alal khair
saidah=gembira
jamilah=cantik
mujtahidun=rajin

mumkin = boleh
natakalam = bual/cakap
bil = dengan
lughah = bahasa
arabiah = arab

uridu an azhaba ila hamam= saya nak pergi ke tandas

uridu an azhaba ila dukkan=saya nak pergi ke kedai

uridu an azhaba ili as'a'li=saya nak pergi bertanya

hal fahimtum:adakah awak semua faham?

p/s: Dia slalu sangat tanya "hal fahimtum" ,bila tanya apa maksud tu,dia senyum jer,sabor je la,tapi sekarang dah tu maksud nyer,ley la guna.Syed -->Uhibbuka fillah ;)

Motivation Proclamation

Since year 2012 is arrive,most of the time i remind to myself,always think positive.Insya'Allah you always find your way because Allah always here for you.When i'm really in miserable i'm always looking for a peace by Tasmid...

Astaghfirullaahal'azhiim ( 3x)

and

Laa ilaaha illallaahu wahdahu laa syariikalah,lahul mulku walahul hamdu,wahuwa'alaa kulli syain qadir (3x)

But,jika time tu tengah "period" so tak ley la nak tasmid,jadi baca dlm hati and definitely i would looking for other alternative such as any quotes motivation or listen to the Maher Zain song.Actually,before he arriving Malaysia for promote his song,my auntie already give me his CD and i fall in love to the song especially Insya'ALLAH.I feel so peacefull when listening to the song,i feel like His there beside me and calm me from being worried.Alhamdulilah ;)

Since i was over from studies,since i was graduate i told myself that...

"SAYA INGINKAN PERUBAHAN,SAYA INGIN MENJADI BETTER PERSON THAN BEFORE"

Habis je grad,betul2 tanam azam untuk menjadi better person,tak nak dah ada scandal-scandal nie,juz berdoa supaya ALLAH tutupkan hati ini sehinggalah berjumpa dengan yg betul2 dapat memimpin diri ini serta dia memang telah dijodohkan untukku.Tak nak dah pakai baju ketat-ketat,no no to skinny jeans,cannot and what important is tak nak dah terlepas solat.Sekian.

Okies,let me clearify why the title for the entry is Motivation Proclaimation,because i keep remind and motivate myself to think positive and always be strong for any kind of problem i face.Hence i always look to my idol whose is Prophet Nabi Muhammad as khalifah didunia ini,my mum the best buddy in the world and the strongest person i ever meet,Rozita whose is Pengasas Sendayu Tinggi because she used to be single mother and i know it's difficult being single mother,Stephen William Hawking,the scientist that found the black hole,even though he was sick yet he still work hard,for him if your mind say you don't sick and for the rest of your life you didn't sick and last but not least is Dr.Mahathir our ex-prime minister,I love his way of thinking.I adore all this people ^^

For the past five year,my life was really miserable.Being as student kat UMT dulu,jujur cakap mmg gile enjoy,best ya amat,it was sweet memory having a friend yang satu kepala,yg boleh dibawa ketengah,ketepi,kekanan dan kekiri semua tu,kadang2 pergi class,kadang2 tak pergi class,sesuka hati,keluar dengan ramai laki lak tu,pasang scandal lebih dari seorang,then keluar malam and confirm2 la balik pun tengah malam kan,kan,kan,memang macam2 perangai la sehingga hingga gantung semester la,alahaaiii..dan sudah semestinya bila dah beperangai macamtu confirm2 la solat pun terbabas banyak kali,apatah lagi mengaji..sah-sah la tak wat kan,aduhhhaaiiii.Bile teringat kan balik life as student dulu,terus rase semacam..

"YA ALLAH,engkau ampunkah lah dosaku ini,jahilnya hambamu ini kerana telah memalingkan muka dari menghadapmu Ya ALLAH,amin.."

Bukan mahu mengata lak,jauh sekali ye kak,hehe,cuma time tu memang rasa diri ini semacam,lebih kepada self-destruction la,camtu la,and sepanjang jadi student dulu memang mengajar erti kehidupan,lebih focus kepada diri sendiri.Sekian.

Except time jadi agent lak,more to surrounding,how deal people with randomly of behavior.Time tu memang da letak azam tak mo pakai baju ketat-ketat,so i prefer to wear baju kurung instead of kemeja yag dimasukkan baju kedalam seluar untuk ditunjukkan shape badannya.Then they call me "budak kampung" because i'm wearing "baju kurung" yang tiada shape itu and when i go for solat or pergi dengar ceramah kat surau(nak tengok imam muda,ustaz wan sohor bani leman^^) they call me "ustazah",time tu hanya ALLAH sahaja yang tahu perasaan ini."Ya Allah,Engkau berikanlah kekuatan kepada hamba mu yang lemah ini".

Then,i been watching it that orang yang berduit memang dipandang mulia dan orang yang berpakaian menampakkan lurah itu sungguh jelita bagi mereka semua itu.I don't know why i don't want to get out from that situation.everytime i pray of Solat Istkharah mesti mimpi insurans,setiap kali solat Istikharah mesti mimpi insurans juga,so that's why i stick to the insurance even though i didn't got any bucks.Everything change when he come,when he ask me to become his partner life,and without thinking beyond it i said "Yes",hati tu terus terbuka padahal memang tak kenal dia langsung.Then i put up my hands and doa...

"Ya Allah,jika dia jodohku,Engkau dekatkan lah dia dengan ku,jika dia bukan,Engkau jauhkanlah dia dariku,amin..."

Alhamdulilah,till now,both of us still together.There is a time,when both of us really miserable,time tu memang tgh kering giler dengan cuaca yang panas,then terus dia cerita tentang idol dia,Sheikh Abdul Rahman As Sudais.Terkejut,tak sangka lak dia jenis macam tu, Allah temukan aku dengan lelaki ini,then dia terus play mp3.Surah Yassin dari Sheikh Abdul Rahman.Terus dia ajar aku baca Yassin.Daripada dia juga aku belajar untuk membaca Surah Al-Wakiah dan Surah Al-Mulk setiap hari selepas maghrib,padahal sebelum ini opahku banyak kali suruh baca tapi tak baca pun,huhu.Sungguh degilkan ;(

Tapi kali ini aku dah berazam untuk menjadi lebih baik dan akan practic Islam way in my life sebab bagiku Islam itu Indah.Dia banyak ajar aku tentang Islam,hinggakan dia pernah bacakan hadis Ayat Qursi kepadaku,dia juga pernah bermimpikan aku berpakaian mendedahkan aurat dan keadaan tsunami,sehingga dia menagis dan berharap aku tidak berkelakuan begitu.Daripada dia jugalah,yang mengajar aku supaya menutup aurat,hingga dia pernah tegur aku gara-gara baju aku atas punggung,hehe.Walaupun dia belajar tidak setinggi mana,tapi aku tetap kagum dengan pengalaman hidup dia.Sentiasa menjaga aku.Alhamdulilah,ALLAH sudah memperkenankan doaku untuk dipertemukan dengan lelaki yang dapat mebimbingku ke jalan Alllah ;)

Pernah juga kawan-kawanku bertanya kenapa menghilang.Why i was missing? Cuma baru sekarang ni active online,it was because there was stalker at my FB,then terpaksa lah untuk me"remove" kan balik friend yang tiada kaitan dalam hidup,just approve yg betul-betul ada kaitan,termasuk lah untuk me"remove" semua scadal yang ada,and why there were no entry at my blog for few month,it was because there one guy yang ntah dari mana ntah tibe2 kutuk pasal blog aku ni,padahal aku langsung tak kenal dia,padiaapaa >.<

That's why blog yang telah diedit-edit ini,dengan nafas baru dan azam baru untuk membuatkan ia lebih realistic dan more general for view,dah tak nak yang negatif dah,yang ada hanyalah positif-positif entry sahaja.Umur sekarang pun hampir mencecah 25 tahun,so perlu kan perubahan kearah kebaikkan.Sekian ;)

I love My Mum !

My mum birthday on March 15,around one month to go,so i think wanna bring her somewhere and buy her something,because this my chance to show to her that i really love her ;)

Recently,my mum had argument wif opah,aiisshhhh,sume tu gara-gara ibu ku menegur adek nyer yg meletak kasut yg kotor atas almari where's di bawahnyer ada buku ilmiah,surah yasin and other..so what do you think? mesti la tak elok sangat kan,dah terang benderang tak elok letak apa2 barang lagi tinggi dari buku-buku ilmiah kan,kan...pahtu tibe2 opah lak tak puas hati sbb ibu tegur adek dia,then terus melalut-lalut sampai cakap yg bukan-bukan..statement paling tak best sekali bila...

"Kau tu perempuan Isya oi,kena sedar sikit,jaga sikit mulut tu,sedar sikit kau tu perempuan tau tak,sedar sikit perempuan"

Statement tu la yg buat rasa mcm mahu durhaka sedikit,sbb bagiku kenapa mahu bezakan lelaki dengan perempaun,dalam kitab pun tak de nak beza kan antara perempuan,hak perempuan sama mulia dengan lelaki,sbb ALLAH itu maha adil.Seriously,mmg agak sakit dengar statement tu,bile kite sebagai perempuan perlu mendengar buta tuli dari lelaki,aduhhhh !!!!!!!!

Bagiku la,statement tu boleh dipakai time zaman opah je la,maybe 50 years ago,perlu lelaki dalam hidup,tapi zaman sekarang ni,Man come second after career,okies !!! .Bukan nak judge apa,tapi based on experience la,man doesn't mean anything for me,yes,i' respect them but no need to listen for every single words if their were wrong.Contohnyer,perlu ke dengar kata-kata suami bile disuruh pukul anak or hantar anak-anak ke rumah kebajikan dengan alasan anak2 tu membebankan? walauweh..guna la sikit akal tu yer,sbb lagi 10 tahun akan datang,anak yg dibenci tu lah akan jaga org tua@parents nyer itu !!!

Then,tak perlu sangat la berharap pada lelaki,mcm kite sebagai perempuan mmg perlukan nyer,at least kalo ade mende yg ley kita wat sendiri,kite wat la sendiri,tak perlu kan mereka.tak perlu tunjuk kite lemah sgt,sbb nanti kite lak kena buli dengan orang.That's my mom advice,masa i cerita atau lagi tepat mengadu dekat dia sebab perangai sesorang tu,then my mum ckp "jangan terlampau lemah sangat,nnt orang buli kita,belajar untuk berkata tidak".Sampai sekarang i still used that word to remind me if i meet anyone that try to bully me.

Since my mum get divorce for second time,i look her that she really change.She look more tough and more carefull,sometime she got too emotional for little things,huhu.But,no matter what she inspired me a lot.Because for me is not easy being single mother.And more trouble if being single father.Serously you have to take responsibility as mother and father.No matter what she did,i always love her.I love you so much,ibu !

time ni g genting and my face time tu mmg banyak jerawat,huhu ;(

ni gamba baru la gak..on january haritu..da xde da jerawat,kalo ade 1 dua jer,hehe

time ni g petaling street rase nyer..my mum look lil fatty right,tp masa dia muda dulu sangat kurus,ok..pernah try baju kahwin dia,perghh..tak muat sehhh,nampak sangat i more fatty than her ;p

p/s:sedikit terasa bila si dia ckp my mum look younger than her age,plus he said "tak de la gemok mana pun,biasa jer.."..pe kes,awek sendiri tak pernah nak dipuji,ibu lak yg dia puji,>.<

Meaning of Beautiful - Dimon

Okies,let me clarify here what the true meaning of BEAUTIFUL based on my opinion view ;')

Everyone got their own opinion to tell and describe the word of "BEAUTIFUL"

So,based on Wikipedia,i view the meaning of beauty :

Beauty (also called prettiness, loveliness or comeliness) is a characteristic of a person, animal, place, object, or idea that provides aperceptual experience of pleasure, meaning, or satisfaction. Beauty is studied as part of aesthetics, sociology, social psychology, and culture. An "ideal beauty" is an entity which is admired, or possesses features widely attributed to beauty in a particular culture, for perfection

Hence,based on dictionary :

the quality present in a thing or person that gives intensepleasure or deep satisfaction

to the mind, whether arising from sensory manifestations (as shape, color,sound, etc.),

a meaningful design or pattern, or something else (as a personality in which high

spiritual

qualities are manifest)

So,after you read it,what do you think of it? the true meaning of beauty?

I prefer the characteristic of person ;)

Bukan mahu perli or mengata apa-apa pun,tapi lebih kepada memuji,ikhlas dari hati ;)

I been know this guy for more than couple year,his name is Fadhlul Hadi or

commonly call him as Dimon ;)

I think i didn't meet him around 2 year,since both of us finish studies,then never meet him after that,any news from him i got from FB,yup,the media that contact each other,itu pun setakat tengok-tengok gamba and membalas komen.That's it.Itu sahaja,tak pernah pun nak sms or call or Skype sume tu,hanya melalui FB sahaja.Sekian.

Dimon was Fisheries student,kenal dia pun rasanye melalui Maro sebab diaorg satu rumah,kalo tak silap la,hehe..Then,start dari situ,mula bertegur sapa dengan dia.Dimon yg dikenali semasa time University dulu jenis yg mesti ada GF dia disebelahnya and jenis happy go lucky,ayat dia mesti giler-giler,what i can said is He was Cheerful person,bukan jenis yg Nerd.NOT !!!

Then,baru-baru ni ternampak status seseorang pasal ;

"mengamalkan membawa air masak pergi kemana-mana boleh menjimatkan 20 sen,selain boleh mengurangkan pengambilan air manis dikedai makan"

Seriously,i'm so suprised to read the status,macam "whose this guy? jarang giler la jumpa guy yg bercakap pasal penjimatan bawa air dan pengurangan air manis..so unbelievable i got a friend in FB yg mementingkan pengunaan air,and also talk about Health which he said "mengurangkan pengambilan air manis",really really terkejut...

I smile for a moment..because i'm happy for that kind of person,jarang la nak jumpa lelaki yg mementingkan kesihatan,sangat-sangat jarang except yg jenis maskulin,mmg akan menjaga kesihatan dengan take a pil and go to gym for fitness la,etc..

Tapi,time tu memang tak terfikir pun nak tgk profile pitcure,just baca status jer,pahtu scroll status lain..then after few day..terbaca lagi post dari Fadhlul Hadi...

He upload a Multivitamin Pix,which is good for our health ;)

(i also take extra supplement ^^)

Time tu la baru tergerak hati nak tengok siapakah gerangan yg mengamalkan gaya hidup sihat ini.Tengok profile picture, seriously mmg tak kenal, Who's this? Did i know him?

Then,go to next picture..go next..go next..then..OMG..is Kevin Zahri..i think la,and that guy..

What? Is it Dimon ?Budak Fisheries tu? Seriously memang terkejut sangat ok !

(Dengan mulut terngaga sedikit and almost menjerit kecil ;p )

You totally DIFFERENT !!!

I mean YOU BEAUTIFUL !!!

Seriously,i'm speechless ok,i admit you more much masculine now,kalo sebelum nie memang comey but now a day you masculine ok ! Bukan sebab apa,i'm happy for a person who take care his healthy,because my mum selalu cakap "Lelaki yg pandai jaga badan ialah lelaki yg takkan buncit,walaupun dia smoke tapi dia tetap Fit then sentiasa menjaga penampilan before dia mengata orang lain,terutama bau badan dan bau mulut,lelaki macam tu bagus untuk dijadikan persaingan kepada perempuan yg tak reti jaga badan ".Sekian.

For my opinion,dia tak perlu pergi Gym setiap hari untuk nampak 6 pac,cukup dengan pumping 30 times per day,dia xperlu guna dumb bell,cukup guna air botol 5 liter ;)

No need to take multivitamin if he already pick a good food but should take a supplement or multivitamin for good condition on the next day.Perlu minum juga,i mean start minum air susu supaya nnt dah tua tak de la tulang tu cepat mereput.And we should go for exercise at least three time a week or 30 minute for session.

I mean Dimon You Beautiful because your characteristic,much different from day before,

you already think about you health.Perlu mengamalkan gaya hidup sihat.Good Job.I like it.

Dah xde status merapu-rapu dah,your status much matured than other,bagus,plus you go for hiking to stay fit,kalo setakat futsal jer,semua lelaki main kot,u take a challenging activity that really good and wish you all the best ahead ;)

p/s:

start jaga kesihatan since muke naik byk pimple and acne,g jumpa pakar kulit,dia cakap "your bdn byk minyak,hormom tak betul so kena slalu detoks,and u should take mineral water at least 8 glass per day,dont go for carbonate drink,don't take seafood because you sensitive for it,and always use hand sanitizer,your face oily but your skin is dry so you should use aloe Vera lotion,ok".Perghh,malu siot bile pakar muka itu ialah lelaki,aduhhh..then start dari situ mula menjaga kesihatan,hand sanitizer and mineral water sentiasa ada dlm beg ;)