Cabin crew :'/

Dia cakap dia ada presentation,bile tanya,dia kata "adalah,nnt B bagitau ayang,k".Aku lak diam jer,malas nak cari pasal dgn.dia.Pahtu dia balik Perak,jumpe bonda tercinta.Takde la marah dia balik perak,suka jer,bila dia mengutamakan mama dia,tak kisah pun,tapi yang aku bengangnya bile dia ley terlupe pasal date,lama aku tunggu dia,angin dibuatnya,ampehduusszzz punya lelaki.Geram ya amat.Sekarang nie dia da balik KL,then he told me that he goin to Sepang,KLIA.Dalam hati,what?cant believe it.Biar betul,dia dapat pergi.No wonder la pergi wat medical check up,sume alah tu,rupe-rupenyer dia dapat job tu.Bukan la jelez,the true is i'm happy he got a job,i mean a job,not that job,not a cabin crew.I dont wanna call him and said congratz,wish he do his best,what i do now is jus sit down,doing nothing...

I'm afraid losing him,i'm afraid he goin to be someone else,I dont wanna lose him.Right here,now,i miss him a lot..

Kahwin

Semua orang nak kawen,bile tgk kawan2 lain yg kebanyakkan blajar tak tinggi mana,tengok2 balik,la da kawen rupenyer dia nie,..siap da ada anak dah,almost most of them dah kawen,mula la tu tanya soalan cepu cemas,"bila nak kawen?lambat lg ke,jgn2 lambat2 sgt,nnt jadi andartu",katanya.Dalam hati ase cam nak cili-cili je minah ni,sukati aku la nak kawen ke tak,aduhhaaiii.Then aritu aku dapat tau one of my member ni cam depressed ngan life dia.Aku faham.Aku pun pnah gak lalui keadaan camtu,ngan stadi x bagus mana,keje pun x perfect mana,lg bertambah naik kematu bile tgk byk member ada yg dah kawen,then dirini mula ase macam,"why,why this happen to me?why i'm not rich?why i'm not beauty like her? why?",bermacam soalan menjengah ke dalam otak ni.Apa-apa pun life must goes on,okies.Kau jgn kecewa sgt dgn life kau.Actually kau perlu happy sebab kau ada parents and sibling.Setengah tu,diaorg hanya ada mak jer,xpun ayah jer,ada yg lagi pedih,diaorg tu anak yatim.Kau perlu bersyukur dgn apa yg kau ada.

Pasal kawen lak,semua org nak kawen,aku pun nak gak,kau xyah nak ase jeles ngan ppuan kat luar sana yg dah kawen awal,diaorg tu kawen awal sbb blajar tak tinggi mana pun,stakat SPM jer,lpas SPM trus kawen,compare ngan kita,tgh sibuk kat matriks then lpas tu trus masuk U,dekat situ jer kau dah boleh nampak beza IQ kau dgn ppuan tu.Lagi satu,bile kau da ada kerjaya,confirm2 la kau nak ada keta ngan umah kan,berbanding dgn ppuan yg kawen awal tu,paling jauh pun dia mst duk sewa la,jadi suri rumah,plg tinggi pun keja swasta yg seberapa.Kau boleh nampak kan yg kau lagi berdikari dari diaorg tu.Lagi satu masalah,bile dah kawen,tibe2 jodoh tak panjang,trus break,aleh2 duk ngan mak bapak,berbanding dgn kau dah ada kereta sendiri,umah sendiri n plg best bile kau x menyusahkan mak bapak.

Bagi aku la kan,better cari kerja,kumpul harta,at least ada kereta,dpt umah lg bagus,sebab laki zaman sekarang bukan ley di harap sgt,lagipun aku bukan desprate sgt nak kawen awal,opah aku tu jer yg bising tanya bile "mamat" tu nak masuk meminag,huh ;)

Benggang

That day,u supposed to come to meet me,u promise the day before that u wanna come to meet me,u said again u would come in the early morning just to make sure we had much time to spend.I’m so excited,finally we had our on date.On that day,i’m wearing white blouses and blue black jeans.Plus,i put a make up just to look beautiful,just for you.Wake up in the early moring,just cant wait to meet u.Here i go,walking on the street and went to the place that we promise to meet up.I’m sit there waiting for you.Tik tok,tik tok.Time fly so fast.Unenthusiastic.Look at the watch.Two and half hour there,still you not show up,even you not texting me and what worse more is you turn off your hp.I’m out of the blue.After the two day,i got a miscall from you.It’s that all you can do after you turn me down.What a bloody hell.Moron.Seriously,i’m fed up with this situation and really tired with the drama.After a week,you texting me asking for a apologize and you said you out of the town.After a week only one sms and two call from you.It’s that all you can do,my lovely boy.Oh shit.Just freak out let it go.Now i cant close my eyes.Obscure.I love you more than words.I miss you.I can be strong.I can be tough,but with you,it’s not like it at all.However,i even wonder “did u really love me like i love you” because you always gone when i need for a help.And right now,i’m cry for heart bleeding,sit in the corner,and i’m preety sure that feeling now is heartbroken.I dont love you like I love you yesterday,though today i saw a couple same like my name and yours,and plus she also wearing a glass and that guy also got same height like you,and yet their anniversary also same like us.What a concidence.

p/s:nasib baik ada adik aku,stiap pagi n mlm,dia akan msg aku,at least xla pikir sgt psl bf aku tu,hehe..thnx zarip,syg kat zarip okies,jg diri lek lok kat poli tu ;)